seasons…

I can’t believe its fall but its like FREAKING a 100 degrees in california.  FML its way too hot.  I JUST WANT TO RUN AROUND NAKED EVERYWHERE… (that was just an outburst of the heat inside of me)  

One thing that I do want to talk about seasons not the seasons in a year but the seasons you have in life.  Seasons of joy, seasons of weeping, seasons of growth, seasons of love, seasons learning.  The question is which one am I in?

As I reflect on this I believe I am in this season of learning.  I am learning so much about who I am, what I believe in, what makes me tick, what gets me excited, what are my passions, and things of that nature.  One of my tendencies is force things to happen though.  I want to just keep moving out of a season and into another and what then happens is not good because everything is forced and it is out my strength and my will rather than God’s  Reading Psalms 27 made me realize though I need to wait.  In the last verse it says that “wait on the Lord”.  I just need to wait.  Allow God to move in my life and just receive.  Not strive for my sake but move out of God’s sake.

I have been realizing more and more, what I live for.  I live to serve.  Honestly if God called me to become a janitor I would totally be happy because that is what God’s will is and that is what will glorify him.  Sometimes I forget this and live for others or myself.  

Its hard because I want to do what I want and just be content.  Yet I know God has called me for more.  He called me to live for others.  Using the talents and gifts that he has given to me so that I in turn can give too.  I give because it was first given to me to give to others.  I just want to help.  I just want to bring a smile to someones face.  But I have to wait on the Lord.  On his timing.  Right now my time is to study hard get, awesome grades, and learn learn learn some more!  So that I can in turn give what I have learned.  In the meantime where ever I go i want to bring joy, hope, and love.  Let us wait on the Lord.  On his timing and not strive on our own accords.  God give me patience!